My Pet Hamster Drank the Potion

//Will probably bury this post after a day or 2

Thank you to the commenters who shared their views on religion! It really cheered me up that people do think about religion critically and that people still have faith! Watch my last post if you’re interested.

I’ve been becoming depressed after the… news about this hemorrhoids business because of the uncertainty of things, whether this cream will work or not, will I live or die, will this change me from what I am now, will I be ready for both good and bad news? It was comforting to know that I wasn’t alone and that people have experienced the same things, what scares is what the people experienced after the initial “calm” finding. After watching an incredibly underrated movie called 50/50 starring Joseph Gordon-Levitt,

I can say that I’ll get through anything, any news whatsoever but before that come the stages. When I thought that I was cured finally after 2 days of not experiencing anything, I then to my horror found out that it wasn’t over. I couldn’t help but do a dramatic scene of sobbing in the loo, in the shower, thinking and contemplating and just thinking again… what if, what if, what if. I couldn’t get the thought out of my mind and I was seriously frightened and scared. Most frightening moment of my life.

But afterwards, after the sobbing, the mourning and the denial, you gradually accept and become ready for anything to hit you. You look for your inspiration and you find them in the littlest things. You try to act noble and do the most honorable thing. You try to keep your act together for the sake of others and for the sake of yourself. Suddenly you had a purpose in life. Live while you can.

This weekend started with a kaleidoscopic myriad of colors, music, body movements and aroma but it all turned black and white as I again was saying goodbye to my brother for the 3rd time as he ventures off to a better land for better opportunities somewhere above the Atlantic. I cried once again as I would not hear us screaming at each other anymore for a year and laugh at how relationships work. At how you think you hate someone but after everything, you still love them to bits. I WISH HIM WELL AND ALL THE BEST! CHEERS BROTHER AND BON VOYAGE!

So yeah, the title… LOL I actually wanted to write this post because of my dream. I’ve been feeling SO GROGGY AND SLEEPY the past few days and I just want to sleep it off ALL THE TIME. I practically slept in all the car rides the past days too. Thing is I’ve been dreaming every single time and this dream stuck like a gum under a shoe. That sort of disturbing thing.

I dreamt that I had a pet hamster the SIZE of a small bean/seed/nut.

Imagine that, it was only a few centimeters or even millimeters long but I had it somehow. It looked like my favorite hamster when I was young and I took care of it. But then, I suddenly lost it somehow and got another one. I would play with it as it scurry along the palm of my hand but then I would eventually find this “first” hamster. This “first” hamster now though grew to be an inch longer and I was surprised! At my surprise, I lost again my “second” hamster and got another little hamster. It kept on repeating until I had a lot of hamsters now. But then they would also grow and grow…

Senseless dreams right?

*toasts to whiskey – hoping it would cure my cough and colds -_-*

Questions:
1. What’s the first dream that you had in 2012? Or what’s the latest dream you remembered?